2012 and growing

Wow...3 blogs in one night!  Well, not really.  I wrote one...based off scripture from church today...mainly tonight but with some Brother Harold Noble splashed in there here and there....so basically...I didn't really "write it"...I just copied it from my bible and notes and then threw in a few of my own thoughts.  THEN I found this really old blog I had started but never published.  I didn't even read it...I just published it.  So, now, here I am.  Well, I just read the old blog that I wrote at the beginning of the year and get this...here I am 10 months later and I think I am just about in the same boat as I was in January.  Still searching...still trying to find my place in this place that is not my home.  I have eliminated the thought of working for the church or school full time.  I have applied for a pretty serious position at work....after getting my degree and my experience actually doing that exact same job...I thought well this is so easily being handed to me...it will be a shoe in so this much be what God wants of me.  He wants me in this corporate world....so no...that did not play out the way I thought it would in my head.  I didn't get the job.  It was rough.  It was even more rough when I returned from work after a couple days off only to find out that....everyone I worked with knew everything that had happened.  I was so not cool with that.  Thank to the two people at work that felt it was ok to exploit my experiences for your dramatic entertainment.  So now, here I am again....seeing out what I am all about and what God's goal is for me.  The biggest thing I have learned so far this year, is that although I have known for years to let God control everything I have not let Him do it.  Not even close.  Are you kidding me!....Mrs. Control Freak here!!  So now, here I am, letting him take control.  We're going to put our house on the market in January so we can move to Saginaw in a house that costs next to nothing so we can put more money into God's ministries and our business.  I don't have any help to give me that security I am always use to lining up for my peace of mind.  Trust me...I tried...I was shut down in all areas!  I am sure very much part of God's plan for me to "Let Go and Let God!"  So, if the house sales (Please Lord) then I know God's hand was in it.  If it doesn't (Praise God!) it wasn't in His plan.  And...I'll keep looking, searching....seeking.  Because the Lord says if you seek Him, He will reveal Himself to you.  Do I get a new job...who knows...if the right opportunity reveals itself I'll pursue it.  If it goes through, then Praise God...if not, Praise God!  I'm not in control and I'll follow whatever He brings my way.  Until then, I'm going to seek Him, I'm going to fill my reservoir of truth and do everything I can in my power, but mainly His power, to show the world what it truly means to have a relationship with Christ and how it is like living life seeking Him and following His path versus my path.